it was two years ago that i spent my longest time out of home. and i didnt regret it, for the experience that i got was simply wonderful.
hamamatsu two years ago. looking back at the poems of singing and other random stuff, i really love the people and the trip, and how we have n0w moved on, but our hearts will still reverberate with the same tune, of fun, joy and friendships. all the memories well kept in this place.
i so never regretted taking japanese for four years. even if it meant slogging out 4h per week at bishan while other indulge in rest or other more prestigious stuff, i still love the whole process. though it meant getting zam-ed by sensei, or trying so hard to figure out what is what, learning japanese makes me happy. it relieves me from academic stress. and learning languages is something so exciting, for there are their own stories behind them.
though somehow, japanese or 3rd language might not be something high-ranked as council or head of a committee even though both take up the same amount of time (maybe even more) and our efforts might just culminate to that final little line on our report cards that says “Japanese………..A2″ as compared to the long list of achievements that others might have, japanese has given me much more than i would ask for, and a dream that would never end.
i guess life goes on for the 20 of us. but this will be something that all of us share between ourselves. forever and ever.
浜松の夢。hamamatsu dreaming.
Hamamatsu Dreaming <3
japan, i’ll be back again!
latas (:
gahh. up down up down merry go round.
how life plays on us in every single damn way. crush once crush twice.
how sometimes one life can be a total knnccb load of shit. and others, a smooth-sailing one.
grrrrrrrrrr.
面对困境，抱着走一步算一步的心态，让命运指引我们吧。
latas
update of the past week. perhaps i have learnt to slowly know how to let go of things. and sometimes, it definitely feels better.
wednesday
csm. ok first time as college student, get to see the new fac comm in action. not really very impressed yet (perhaps e previous batch set high standards), but i guess they will become better and apollo would be damn fun. all the sporting stuff on the field, and as usual, it’s all the lame things on the terraces that are more fun. like project milo, balancing two cups of full milo on each hand and weaving through a human maze, pictures etc.
had to stay back for like 6h for interview, so was randoming around at kap, then went to gym, haha before studying for econs. i guess the interview was okay, somehow, i guess with more experience comes better adaptability. and yea, i think there were people who deserved a place. gahh, the harshness of life i suppose, and there’s just this shit feeling i got last year in e same situation.
american idol performance rocked! didnt know why, but i sorta had a bond with the last song. haha, some might say that it’s cheesy, i beg to differ. it’s somewhat inspirational and emotional when i heard adam sang it. gahh.
thursday
council invest was fine i guess, short, sweet and pretty. coming from a class of 6 councillors, i guess im happy that all of them got in, but somehow, there is a certain sense of loss? i know i can still count on them, talk to them, have fun with them as usual, but somehow, there’s just this feeling running through my blood. gahh, after that there was a frenzy while waiting for american idol results. im a glambert, but kris won.
2h30min of non-stop volleyball was fun. playing with strangers, mates was relaxation to the max, and i love jumping around having fun 
and total slacking for the whole day. caught up with american idol show again, and jason mraz is <3 his rendition of im yours was still the best from the three i heard today.
friday
supposedly a ‘get-back-test-papers’ day but lit and gp (the two that i fear the most) were not returned. hah, im just procrastinating fate -.- econs was okay, but could be better. and math hmm, im happy with it. dance night was relatively okay, not really those wow-me kind, cos i think there’s little variety of dance. like isnt dance night about dance? there’s just a lot of similar genres that i got bored sometimes. maybe there can be inclusion like other dance forms, e.g. ballet, tango or even line dance? i mean haha, hc should have a share of these people as well. but great job dancers! (:
saturday
out the whole day, and loved every single minute of it. bought a new book as well, simply just couldnt ignore the 30% discount borders gave.
latas
No Boundaries
Ohh
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you’ve lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it’s harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don’t know where the future’s headed
Nothing’s gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I’ve run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it’s harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there’s nothing between you and your dreams
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it’s harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries
gahh. as i take a look at the past two weeks.
somehow what i want is not what i really want. and i guess i have to review some of the stuff i did. there’s an aspect of it which i really detest. seeing how its dwindling like crazy, how people react to different things. i guess i need solace, and i need to find it soon.
and life seems suddenly so empty without co.
latas
today (:
reminiscence of the past is something so sweet, that one looks back at how he has progressed on, but counting the losses along the way.
gahh. my backlog is piling higher and higher.
latas
alas, all the hulabaloo is over. and now i can really focus myself on academics, ahh, those which i had been dao-ing for the past 2 months. sometimes, its just so funny that 老天 plays so much jokes on you. but fortunately, there’s this nice holiday off in lieu and also support from friends that make me feel (: again.
meanwhile, backlog has been piling up, econs test, history essay, gp test, pw, math tutorial and so much more. im just afraid my life’s gonna be screwed over. there’s just too many social expectations and barriers i need to see to. and often than not, gahh, they just work against me.
走一步，看一步。
雨过天晴，流芳百世。
latas
syf’09 with hcco simply rocked.
it’s somewhat a different experience from the ‘07 one, perhaps cos this is a more student directed one, there’s nobody but our seniors to guide us, practise together. and of course me first time playing zhongruan. i guess the process of picking up this instrument was nice, thanks to all the ruan-ners and other seniors! playing shuqing today was definitely emotional, esp when xyz came in at bar 124, plus the guangban, i almost teared. there’s this sudden rush of adrenaline to go for it, that we can achieve what we can. the journey was long and exhausting, but fulfilling and endearing. i have to say this is one of the best syf i ever had. (: thanks to louis, lydia, ruanners, tanbo, hcco for all the help, care and concern. love you people lots and lots, and this is gonna be a memory that we will look back to.
he went gentle into that good night.
latas
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May 5, 2009
i hope he can pull through.
and never to succumb.
i cry. cry. cry.
for what is loved and lost.
is hardly replaceable at all.
pray. pray. pray.
do not go gentle into that good night.
somehow the counting down to syf has been playing jokes on me.
latas
p.s. hcco let’s do it tomorrow!
):
sometimes, even the best medicine cant cure the society and their views on you.
latas
